Monday, Monday

It's funny that this song is before my time, but it evokes such strong emotions in me.  For one thing, I absolutely love groups that can sing in harmonies.  There's just something about multiple voices singing their part (clearly no less), and yet together they make up an incredible tapestry of sound.

So it's been a week since my last post and although I didn't survive the A to Z challenge, I gave it a shot.  Sometimes I think my life is just too chaotic.  After all, anytime I try to plan anything long term, it doesn't really work out the way I'd like.  But I did have fun with the challenge anyway, even if I didn't quite make it to the end.

There's something good to be said about facing a challenge, even when we think we might fail.  This is true in just about anything we do, but especially true in writing.  The challenge of writing not just one time (i.e. first draft) but going back over and over it (and sometimes re-writing whole sections) is a daunting task.  Whenever I feel like quitting completely however, I think about something I've achieved fairly recently - graduation from college.

Even though it's been over a year since I managed to graduate, I can still feel the thrill of accomplishing it.  It's a rush of adrenaline, an overwhelming feeling of success.  And I'm still riding that wave, using it propel me forward towards more successes.  Feeling that again is worth the mountain of effort it takes to get there - in any activity I engage in.

It's kind of funny though.  Old habits die hard, and even though I embrace challenges, I experience self doubt all the time.  For example, every time I submit one of my assignments for grading, I sit there on pins and needles until I get the grade back.  So far I've been doing absolutely stellar and haven't had to revise a single assignment, so you'd think I'd be fairly confident by now.  But no, every time I submit one, I still have that gnawing doubt in the back of my mind.

This has been a post of rambles and stream of consciousness, but it's been that kind of a Monday.  Here's hoping Tuesday holds something good!