Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Blog Chain - Never Surrender
It's time for another round on the blog chain and I'm freakin' late! Dangit! I hate when that happens. I was supposed to have this post up yesterday, but...wait a minute...ignore the time/date stamp on this post and imagine it is yesterday. Your eyes are deceiving you. It is actually the 16th. Yes, that's true. I have perfected time travel.
The ever-awesome Laura has thrown out this challenging query:
What keeps you going (either trying to get an agent or to get published or finish that WIP that’s kicking your butt) when you know the odds are stacked way against you?
The assumption here is that I haven't given up already. Thank you for that support, Laura. I will now put the knife down and loosen the noose. Whew, another close call.
Seriously though, I am not sure what keeps me working at this. I guess part of it is watching so many of my writer friends, admiring and being envious of their skill, and remaining determined to get to that level of writing skill. Okay, I know in the writer circles, envy is a bad word. We're not supposed to compare ourselves to others. I completely disagree with this thought however.
Just because I am envious does not mean I tear myself up when I fall short. Okay, maybe I tear myself up a little bit, but I also grit my teeth, stamp my feet, and work harder at my writing. After all, I know that I can do this. I have managed to learn how to do a great number of things in this life, and becoming a decent writer is something I truly believe is within the realm of possibility.
As for the odds, I never think about that. To me, thinking about the odds is like trying to imagine being Atlas holding up the planet. It's too humongous to really imagine, too hard to concretely grasp. The odds are so huge against us that trying to fathom them in real terms and deal with that thought is too much. So I just don't worry about it.
I'm also a believer in some sort of twisted version of fate. My life has worked out the way it has because that's the way it was supposed to go. I don't always know why something happens a certain way, but later on I realize it was supposed to happen that way. And I'm okay with that. So I have faith that this is what I'm supposed to be doing, and until I'm shown otherwise, I'll keep doing it. Besides, it's the most fun I've had in a long time - even given all the difficulties.
Our trip through time is almost up, so I will now let you return to the present...er, I mean the 17th...because right now is still the 16th, remember? Anyway, if you didn't get a chance to read Michelle H.'s stupendous response, get yer butt over there. Before you go though, tell me how you manage to keep working at this writing gig?